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this is going to sound bizzare but if you love me you must read this carefully ok! must read really carefully because it means a lot to me!! hahaha!


talked to leeghaiyein and i told her i want eason's 活着多好 on my funeral, and she said she wanted 我等着你回来, then i told her i wouldn't want to attend her funeral because it'd be horrifying. haha! she then reminded me of a movie 六楼后座之家属谢礼, and she said she would want her funeral conducted like the one in the movie because it was cute. i have not thought this through but i would like my funeral to be something like that too! (leeghaiyein i don't care hahaha i want to copy too! neni neni bubu) haha! cause it's meaningful. yes i would like someone to say prayers on my funeral (conventional buddhist funerals :) ) but it would really be nice to sit everyone i love and know together in a room and say something nice about me, not necessarily nice things but just things we've experienced together, or how we met, or the fondest memory you have of me. Oh yes the idea of gathering people that have known me from different stages in my life is so exciting and cool!  :) go on and talk to my family or friends, they're nice people! and hopefully you'd get some new information about me haha. embarrassing things also can :D i don't care. haha! and yes someone would weep (hopefully) hahahahahaha wtf, but it's the memories we share that should be cherished. and then everyone will be served my favourite food, nuggets and 汤圆 and laksa and the best nutella crepes from germany, kimchi pancake kimchi friend rice curry, and vegetables lots of vegetables k! then my photographs can be passed around so that one can remember how fat i was hahahahaha! (NO!! i don't want to die in this form !!) and how happy i was! and then the funeral will have a lot of my favourite songs, (grab playlists from my computer k easy enough)! this song also must put!! click! then everybody is allowed to be sad for two weeks then life must go on but must occasionally think of me ok! (concept/line copied from a movie/novel hahaha) then you must remember that i love you all very very very much, remember that i'll be watching over you somewhere above??? wtf. haha! just remember that i love you all la k! very much!!

fuck la i simply write only i want to live until i'm 86 one!! but seriously i would really want my funeral to be conducted like this! there's a lot of things yet to be accomplished by me, getting fit will be first on my list, and graduating from uni (first class hons la wtf) will be second. and then getting married and spend 80 days around the world, nola more than 80 days ok, maybe one year or two years la and having someone to grow old with! then after having footsteps all over the world only i can die peacefully, not now not now!!!

okla bizzare enough i'm going to bath now lo bye!

taken on the street of Prague near the river that overlooks charles bridge and the castle, 2013.

Prague

 Prague :)

 

tried out some vintage "Harry" effects online :) but the photo quality is not that good 

oink

I just came back from the bathroom and I'm really upset because I lost my iPod, again!! this is the third time I couldn't find my iPod, nevertheless the first two times I was lucky enough to find it again. The first time was in the gym, when the nicest receptionist in the gym has successful located it for me. And the second time was in Berlin, when we came back and i couldn't find it on my bed. Apparently the cleaning lady thought it was someone else's and left it with the receptionist.

Only the third time did it not come back :( I was packing my stuff so i can camp in the library, thought i brought my iPod along however didn't see it in the library. Assumed that i left it in the living room or my housemate's room, but when i went for it, it wasn't there :( tried retracing the tracks and the lost and found in school and didn't find it. Thought that if i stopped searching, it'd just resurface. but it didn't :( my shuffle just vanished in thin air wtf

Okay this is no ordinary iPod, it's a pink iPod! haha wtf. nola! it's my 20th birthday present, and from people i love the most. The thing that's bothering so much that makes me want to put myself in a blender is and blend myself into a cup of juice is, this is the third ipod since i was sixteen. I can't believe i just lost another one. I make things disappear so often i hope that there's a built in gps in everything i own, i mean everything! or at least the things that mean so much to me :(

when i came back from prague, i discovered i left my towel in the previous hostel, and my buddha statue necklace that's presented to me as a farewell gift from my aunt is nowhere to be found. I couldn't word to you how much does this bother me but i feel like when i lose something, a new hole is punched in my heart, or brain wtf. i wish i could be more watchful over my things and stop being so gullible and stupid haha!

and i bought two pairs of earphones after i touched down in the uk. i really don't know where did i put my previous pair of earphones T_T

okay since i'm writing about all the bad things i might as well write everything out so that this will be the end of my long list of not really good things that happened in the past few months. okay from the least damaging. i dropped my titus on the kitchen floor and it now has a little scratch on the side. so sad i don't want to look at titus carefully or else i'll spot the scar again.

when i went to berlin, i hurt my foot on the third day and i literally spent the whole of my journey in the hostel. On the bright side, i FULLY utilized the hostel's facilities, the wifi and the bed. haha! almost got pick pocketed by a fuck face and got conned 100 euros by another fuck face. i'm making all this sound so mild but really it was a frightful experience T_T

thought i could spend my christmas eve with fellow friends nicely and i imagined hugs and counting downs and i ended up taking care of drunk friends hahaha! (nevertheless it was actually very amusing and fun taking care of drunk people muahahuahuahuah!) thought i could spend my NYE with kherjia and thought nothing could probably go wrong when the crowd drowned me and i couldn't even call her, ended up with two little kittens only.

now i've finished my exams i thought i could go traveling again, and have booked bus tickets to paris a month or two before when leekherjia stood me up and then my foot starts aching again. quite worried that if i'll end up staying in the hostel everyday like i did in berlin and pretty much everywhere else. so i stayed back, when everyone left! i spent my whole day doing nothing today :(  

Hmm hahahaaha actually after writing everything out you'd think it's not that big a deal. it is not. i never thought it was, it's just funny and i really want this to end hahaha! so i'll end here naoooo!!
so here's some pictures of gloucester road and my pink ipod shuffle (with vintage effects i just found out on the internet wtf yahoooooooo!!) bye! :D okay actually just two pictures bye!

10:55pm

okay who am I kidding. I'm a very very lucky girl.  I'm 21 this year. So young but given the opportunity to study overseas. I have my sister sponsoring my living costs, and my parents supporting my accommodation and school fees. Was told to buy anything I feel that I need, in order to keep myself warm, or comfortable. Furthermore, blessed enough to have extra money to go to exciting places. It's been only three months but I have been to quite a few cities. Even more, I have my best friend with me here. I have a lot of obstacles meeting up with her, I have not tell her how much I appreciate her, I think I should, maybe one day. Despite not very reliable, she's the only one I can turn to when I'm 12382112 miles from home. Well, some of my housemates are difficult. But they're nice people, they sometimes offer me food. I was blessed enough to have my own bunch. I am lucky to have people I can call 'my bunch'. In fact I'm very very grateful I have them. One of them is my housemate, two of them are my housemate's coursemates, and another two of them are my housemate's coursemate's boyfriends. Not quite related eh? However I feel very comfortable around them and even more I can laugh around and be my normal self. What's even better is that they acknowledged my existence and I appreciate that. Saturday or Sunday nights we have dinner together even when we don't, my housemate and I will cook and watch programmes online. I have friends that are always there for me although living in different time zones. I love them so much because of the assurance they give me all the time. I have my parents that talks to me once or twice every week telling me every small things and nagging me. My brother that calls me once in a while to talk to me and I'd flaunt about the places I've been to, and my sister's occasion calls to make sure I have enough to spend. Even my aunt and cousins are really concerned. I'd call them and they'd make sure that I'm missed. I know my dog and grandma are waiting for me too. In a cold winter night, I ran to the library and felt the cold breeze on my cheeks. That's when I got to my senses and figured that I might be maximizing my problems . I have to quit being a coward.

Count your blessings before even complaining about life.

so here's a picture of sunset in Prague :)

prettiest and most stunning city I've been to :D

and I'm very satisfied of the christmas tree!!

Qing Yan in Europe

11 Dec 2013 - 26 Dec 2013 

Qing Yan eating nutella crepe! 一日一片crepe!!

Qing Yan acting so cute at the train station

Qing Yan taking pictures of streets!

 

Qing Yan eating soup in bread!!

Qing Yan in Frankfurt!!

 

Qing Yan eating pork knuckles in Frankfurt

Qing Yan acting like a sohai and eating famous cake in Vienna

a collection of my pictures! that's all for now!
photo credits: Kahmung!

NYE 2013

I spent my final hours of 2013 in London.

Instead of Kherjia, I welcomed my new year with tommy and yeexun T.T which is pretty depressing and pathetic haha! three people countdown. The massive crowd surrounding us and pretty much everyone made it impossible to move, not to mention finding someone.

Nevertheless, I have to say the four hours of standing and boredom totally worths it.

Despite the aching legs and the rain (that fucking starts 11 something) and the people beside me that have 1823123 packets of cigarettes and endless supply of vodka and coke and ice,

I witnessed the prettiest fireworks in my life.

I stood under the magnificence of the fireworks and watched the colours burst in front of my eyes, I almost cried watching the brilliance.

It was so pretty.

I loved that fact that everyone was gathered together to celebrate the commencement of a new year. Hugging strangers and wishing people happy new year, joining hands and singing auld lang syne (not very, haha!), listening to the heartbeat of the fireworks, Big Ben striking twelve, the cold weather (you never get that in Malaysia k, only sweat and heat hahaha!), standing in front of London Eye and the biggest prettiest ten minute fireworks.
I'm so thankful and blessed for another year, and even more than that, being able to usher my new year with all these people.

I had a great 2013, I'm 21 now.

I don't mean to brag, but..

I WAS FUCKING THERE!!

I watched the NYE 2013 London Fireworks!!

And I am very happy!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

updates

Hello :) It's already December in a blink of an eye. And I still can't believe that I'm already here for almost three months and surprisingly, very used to living here.

Living condition wise, it's very safe here, especially for us, it's a blessing to walk around without having to worry about bad people pounding on you or having to cling on your belongings so tightly.

Transportation wise, the buses are generally on time but when it comes to weekends, my activities will have to end before 8pm because the last bus runs till 8.

Accommodation wise, I am very satisfied with my room. Basically I made it so homey by posting hell lots of pictures from home, illuminated with fairy lights, Europe and UK's maps pasted on my cupboard, faint scent of cotton fresh (febreeze lai de wtf) and finally my comfortable bed and three pillows. Only downside of my house is I'm not really close with my housemates except for Enrica. Housemates are nice generally, but sometimes I wonder why do I feel so small and inferior in front of them. Sometimes I'm intimidated by their existence and sometimes I wonder why are they not so friendly wtf. I guess they are just not used to talking to me haha

Social Life wise, okay I'm as dry as a stone or as dry as Hovis's bread refrigerated for more than two days. Except for the times I eat with Enrica, Agnes or Venus and their boyfriends, going to the gym with agnes or attending classes with Hali and Hasnavi, I'm basically locked in my room wtf. Nola!! I got go city de okay! hahaha! Stop portraying myself to be so pathetic. haha! I went to Kherjia's house last friday and it was supposed to be a hangover party but I'm not even drunk!I wonder how does it feel to be drunk, maybe one day I'll give it a go wtf.

Academic wise, I just finished three out of four assignments. Am pleased with my own performance her wtf. I finished both of my assignments a week before the deadline which is not consistent with my previous year's attitude towards work. Maybe that's because it's really boring here. At times I'm not doing homework I must be watching some drama or running man. However there's one final sticky assignment that's due on January. What makes it worse is that I have three more exams in January along with that sticky 1000 word assignment. Have to crack my head to have that written nicely. I borrowed three books from the library to write this assignment but I am still not reading any of those books because I'm....

Travelling wise, Going to Germany soon! and there's a lot of errands I have to complete before leaving. Gosker Tan Shi Wei asked me if it's possible for me to visit twenty countries during my two years here, he then changed his mind and asked if it's possible to travel to twenty cities instead? It's definitely possible I think, I have been to four so far? And I'll be going to Germany, Czech Republic and hopefully Austria this Christmas. As much as being so excited to visit places, I'm worried at the same time T.T I'll be missing a lot of studies in the fifteen days. That's why I'm cramming everything together so I can finish it in time. Well I can! It's just I'll have to bring my revision sheets along to Germany. haha!

Okay recent life: Discovered a movie called 十二夜. It's almost everything I can think of now except for F.R.I.E.N.D.S haha. Can't imagine myself watching the movie, I must pull myself together to watch it. I really desperately hope I can have someone to hold on while watching this but I decided I'll just watch this alone. This is a really powerful movie, I'm not bullshitting haha. 

Wow this post is about 660 words, and it's very easy to achieve 550 words. It'll be equally easy to top up another 450 words and te-da!!!! my 1000 words essay is done!

I'm really fine here, in fact I'm really enjoying my life here to bits. I understand that this will be my only chance living abroad without any serious constraints and even better, I'm sponsored to be here. Well of course, I'm trying to live frugally but I kinda bought some clothes from P&B on Black Friday, I had most of them returned and only kept three la okay. Nevertheless, it's such a pain whenever I think of each of you in Malaysia. I miss my parents, my grandma my dog my friends my bed and everything. It's not beneficial for me to miss everyone so badly. I'm still very glad I'm not too homesick. Or else I wouldn't know what to do. I'll be back very soon and till then I'll be going to a lot of places and make the whole of my time here.

So now ladies and gentleman, I'll have my seminar prep-sheet finished by tonight and I'll have a whole day to do some research on Theo then :) Till then!

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