where have you been

Growing up means getting harder to trust.
it means knowing not to hold high expectations,
it means keeping things to yourself, knowing the truth might hurt.
it means holding dear on to the people you really like,
hoping that they feel the same way too.

I've missed my friend, a lot.

sometimes i just want to curl into a ball, and in a corner,
i want to just shrink, and shrink, and shrink, and shrink,
until i evaporate in the air,
until i can't see myself anymore.